Jello

thinking outloud into words

2007-03-09T05:19:49Z

so things are kinda weird lately. im uber excited, im freaking going to england with Pitam and im going to be by London, and ill be taking a short flight to Paris, France for our anniversary for a week in a hotel too;) and its going to great since he's also working now so hes going to have hella money for me to shop and go out to dinner, haha.

but anyways, im like, a little dissappointed too because im leaving my job for a while, and i was going to get a raise eventually, but if they take me off the records while im gone, im going to have to repeat the whooole freaking thing and wait another like 6 months to get a raise. And also, i started getting really excited about the fact that im getting some scholarships for school since i really want to go to this cosmetology school in sf, but its like $25,000.

i know this is kinda stupid to think of too, but its like, now things are going to be even more difficult, and i dont know how me and pitam are going to get married now because its going to be an insane amount of work and time to get a fiance visa so either i work all the time and save up for school and not see him or hes here while im working and hes not working, or he works and im there, but i cant work and he saves up for my school.

theres just too many things on my mind, but im done because i just needed my silly little journal to write this in

When i was a pothead:

haha, anyways

;D

2007-03-07T04:28:20Z

I miss hiiiimm!!

destroy me, this way

2005-11-23T08:01:21Z

This boy makes me super happy. And i dont think its gonna be like the last one, were as i was happy through being deceived

!!!

2005-09-05T00:43:34Z

I wish i could tell you about this boy that makes me so happy

friends is the password

2004-08-02T21:42:12Z

put in from my xanga

2004-07-04T22:27:01Z

Wow... im almost pissed for once. Yesterday morning. the police accused me of being a runaway. And when they questioned me, they were asking questions that had NOTHING to do with anything. When i told them that my mom was in pacifica cuz we just moved there, and that i didnt know the phone #, they didnt beleive me, they thought it was a at lie. AND to really add to that, since they thought i was lieing, they marked down and told my grand parents that i was under the influence. what the fuck!? They came to Josh's house and WOKE us up, i mean... gee, i must've been taking drugs in my sleep or something. except NOT! that really pisses on my watermelon. On top of that, josh gets kicked out of his house, cuz his grandparents who also live there though that i had sex with Josh. Except one thing. Josh is GAY! They're just too senseless to understand that! Im not about to have sex anyways, especially with my good friends! Shit, this situation is just so stupid, and im gonna stop talking about it. Drop it drop it drop it. Im done

Come Together

2004-06-23T20:55:54Z

Went down town PA again yesterday. its always fun stuff. But before that, a whoole bunch of us were at Tap Ex. Me, Lizzi, Mikey, Nicole, Stephanie, David S ,Peter, Josh, Stasha, Chrissy, and some other random people. It was rad. Then me and Lizzi went down town, and Grant, Andrew, Wyatt, and Tom were already there. We chilled, then Dylan came later. Sexy. Mia and Lauren then arrived. and a whole bunch of other people. Dylan had to leave later. Me, Lizzi, Tom, Grant, Lauren, Andrew, Mia, and this one other guy went to go sit on the roof, which was cool, cuz it was just a whole bunch of bodies just laying around aimlessly. haha, it was cool. Me, lizzi and andrew went to sit some where else and we talked abooot soe funny shit, like how hes taking french classes since kindergarten and still doesnt know shit. Hes a rad kid. Japhy was drawing this realy fuckn rad piece on some guy's notebook, it was cooel. And Yeah...

lucky pants

2004-06-19T22:31:15Z

Yesterday: me, lizzi, and david S go downtown palo alto early to hang out before the show. Mikey got there at about the same time, rad. hung out with everyone, Taco had me peirce her hand... yeah.. So theres this really hot and cool guy named Dylan and shit.. really hot. Mikey asks him if his name is Dylan.. hes all like.. yeah. Mikey's all like, Dude, its Mikey! And they have a frenzy and apparently Mikey knew him back in the day. Thats rad and so surprising, cuz I met him like a little while ago, and thought he was hot shit. But overall, yesterday was interesting. Vague vague vauge shit.

quiz quiz quiz quiiiz

2004-06-19T21:50:35Z

Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel
Name
Your Husband Is
You Met	you won a competition
You Have	10 children
You Live	japan
In	a hotel
You And Your Partner Are Best Known For	your selfish deeds

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Does everyone remember when i thought he was massively hot? mebe cuz he still is... but this picture is so funy looking, it makes me all giggely giggly. i like it

greatnesses of

2004-06-17T02:08:41Z

Karen O
Nick Zinner
Brian Chase
Craig Nicholls
Julian Casablancas
Scott Weiland

What do they all have in common? Theyre in rad bands who i think are genius.

Recipes

2004-06-16T19:45:52Z

How to make a finejoyfulwords

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

5 parts brilliance

3 parts leadership

Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Gunn ou LAHS

2004-06-05T19:52:30Z

Im in the mood to go for a looong walk. Theres not many thoughts on my mind right now, except a couple people and things that i miss. Jeez, i really want to go to Gunn, im not neccessarily "tired" of LAHS, its more like... tired of dealing with shit. Im sure there will be "shit" at Gunn though. I've had this licking fetish lately, and I like how some people know what I mean. I dont know what m talking about, i just have some things on my mind. I got my Vines CD back, i couldnt find it for DAYS! But it was at Margaret's house, im so happy!

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

2004-04-23T22:43:14Z

[10 Things You Touch Everyday]
1. My hair
2. clothes
3. bed
4. cd's
5. cups, plates, food stuff
6. fridge door i bet
7. keyboard
8. my backpack
9. someone else in a non sexual way ;)
10. a door

[9 Friends]
1. Racho
2. Mikey
3. Larissa
4. David S
5. Wyatt
6. Allison
7. Chris G
8. David C
9. Danny Dizzle

[8 Things you're looking forward to]
1. The show on my birthday if i can still set it up
2. warped tour because of Anti Flag, NOFX, etc.
3. end of school
4. the computer being fixed
5. the lytton plaza show coming up
6. all the cd releases of rad local bands
7. skate park
8. i dont want to go to school, but theres some people i wanna see

[7 Things you wear daily]
1. pants
2. lip ring
3. underwear
4. shirt
5. shoes
6. socks
7. random things

[6 Random Memories]
1. some of the greatest times ive had at taco bell with Racho or others
2. halloween with Wyatt, Sam, Conner, Dru, Tim, and everyone else, spraining my ankle and the stories Tim read to everyone about food
3. When Chris, David, me, and my brother were hanging out, went to In and Out, David grabbed my boob and i fell back into smoe plants. and later on, he mooned me and i screamed, ah yeah.. and then me and Chris went some where
4. Last night, me, Larissa, David S and his brother Mark went to the Tapioca place, and everyone "shot each other down". fun times, theyre practically on probation now, so they had to go home after attempting to swim in a fountain, then we hung out with Allison, and as we were by Safeway, some guys literally stopped their car to talk to us, i was like fuuck. and i dont want to talk about the rest of the night. igh
5. going to the skate park and seeing Nick. His reaction being "well well, look whos here"! and hanging out with him and getting a ride home.
6. Some great ass shows at Orange Peal, The Villa, and Lytton

[5 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over]
1. Happy Gilmore
2. CKY4
3. The Jackass Movie
4. American Beauty
5. Detroit Rock City

[4 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys]
1. Pokemon shit
2. those little digital pets, i really want one now
3. Furby
4. my polar bear, Luck

[3 of your favorite bands]
1. Against Me
2. Anti Flag
3. Tie on Janes Addiction and Stone Temple Pilots

[2 Of Your Favorite Songs]
1. Davey destroyed the Punk scene or Go Go Dancer - Anti Flag
2. You look like I need a Drink or Cliche Guevara - Against me

[1 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With]
1. no idea, really

the greatness of

2004-04-16T03:54:54Z

SO i have to write everything again, because the computer decides to be stupid and make te S key go crazy. Today, morning was great, AVID was weird. During break, me and Margaret were around, and the lady was back on sunkist, looking at us for a long time. I felt under the spot light during 3rd, and i alreayd know everythign in that class, so its so easy for me. During Lunch, Larissa couldnt decide on what she was going to do, so she went to her class and me, Wyatt, and Nikki walked around. Were the fuckn July birthdays. Nikki - July 7, Wyatt- July 8, me - July 9. It was lame, hah. We saw this under construction house, we i had the idea to go inside it to hang out, hah. It was fuckn rad, there was some packs of Fiber Glass that we used as chair couch things. While walking away trying to look innocent, we called Maldinado's for foooood, ah good shit. Nikki's mom found out that she was ditching a class though, lame. She just so happened to drive by again as we ate in front of the school, hah. So we found that a better idea would be to eat more in the campus. I never knew Stevie was her brother, and just yesterday, I just found out who Dru's sister was. Im wearing a dress. Im hungry. Wyatt is going to Hawaii tomorrow morning. I think Chris is mad at me. I tried talking to him, but he seemed really distant. The best thing I can think of is give him space for whatever he may be frustrated with, or ask him whats realy wrong. igh

NCK bitches

2004-04-15T01:01:53Z

If I could, i would eat everything I like in an hour no matter how much I eat. I am hungry again. I ate hellsa. Joys Panic show is on friday, with AFM and some other bands. The NCK show is cancelled, so no Finer Points and Brooke. Poop in a shoe. I forgot what else I was gonna say... Yeah

James from Against Me

2004-03-27T20:26:12Z

Stunted as in prevented

2004-03-27T20:07:04Z

Great mall is just too much for me. It was kind of hassle, and I wanted something to eat... but I didnt,.. but that doesnt usually matter at all. I wanted a crepe, but they were close to $5. Rip. Theres a lot of flies outside. Its kinda gross. I think im only halfly self-concious. Coffee has stunted my growth too much. Sarcasm can suck if you use it too much, then its just annoying and weak.

You dont beleive how honest I am on these

2004-03-27T08:21:22Z

01. NAME: Anjelica
01. WHO ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDS? Fuck the title
02. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? no
03. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO SHOP? Meh, I find that i dont "shop" that much at all
04.ANY TATTOOS/PIERCINGS? ears, lip

s p e c i f i c s
01. DO YOU DO DRUGS? Yes, hense my title, what are you gonna do about it cracka
02. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? whatevers there
03. WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF? I dont know, whatever chills my fuckn spine
04. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Muse, nonstop
05. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT CALLED YOU? Either my mom, or nicole while we were at great mall to find each other... in the same store even
06. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED? depends on IF i got married
07. HOW MANY BUDDIES ARE ONLINE RIGHT NOW? 9, then again, its about 12 o'clock
08. WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? plenty, dont get me started

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. GIVEN ANYONE A BATH? little kids that ARE me cousins..
02. SMOKED? oui (yes)
03. BUNGEE JUMPED? i will with the oppurtunity
04. MADE YOURSELF THROW UP? once
05. SKINNY DIPPED? no
06: EVER BEEN IN LOVE? fuck it
07. MADE YOURSELF CRY TO GET OUT OF TROUBLE? no, not even when i was little
08. PICTURED YOUR CRUSH NAKED? not fully naked
09. ACTUALLY SEEN YOUR CRUSH NAKED? non
10. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED? fuck, who doesnt?
11. LIED? Yeah
12. FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? No
13. BEEN REJECTED? occasionally
14. REJECTED SOMEONE? Yes
15. USED SOMEONE? No
16. DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? come on now, who hasnt

c u r r e n t
CLOTHES: green dickies, jack daniels shirt, against me sweater, old skool vans
MUSIC: Muse
MAKE-UP: eye shadow, eye liner, and mascara is rubbing off
ANNOYANCE: shit talkers, dishonety, fakeness, etc, etc.
SMELL: it smells like cloves and pot in here..
FAVORITE ARTIST: i dont know, i have a lot, Muse, Against me, Joys Panic, one or 2 words, etc etc.
DESKTOP PICTURE: I dont even know what it is
BOOK YOU'RE READING: Nothing at the moment, The Bean Trees wasnt too good
CD IN YOUR CD PLAYER: Against me or Nightfist. But muse is always on the computer
DVD IN YOUR DVD PLAYER: CKY dvd's
COLOR OF YOUR TOENAILS: plain ol'

l a s t | p e r s o n
YOU TOUCHED: Uuh.. I think Racho. Not in a sexual way, haha. I think we were competing and pushing each other
HUGGED: Chris, Maggie or Wyatt, either one
YOU IMED: Eric Ventigmilia
YOU YELLED AT: I was gettnig pissed at some guy in my science class a coupla days ago, 2 guys actually, a different Chris, and some guy named Omar, I told them theyre getting annoying and pissing everyone off, so that they should shut up
YOU KISSED: I dont know

a r e | y o u
UNDERSTANDING: at times. I can be one of the most understanding people around. depends really, i can understand people's opinions and shit like that all the time
OPEN-MINDED: whats that mean? im so stupid.. igh
INSECURE: halfly
INTERESTING: depends on what you have in mind by "interesting". I think i can be a lot sometimes
RANDOM: very
HUNGRY: quite often really. But right now, I dont feel like eating anything for a long time
SMART: when i feel like it
MOODY: i hold back. Im bipolar, jsut about everyone knows, and i cant really even help it, so fuck it
HARDWORKING: Meh
ORGANIZED: Meh
HEALTHY: NO
SHY: Most of the time no
DIFFICULT: depends on the subject.
ATTRACTIVE: Most people just fish for compliments. Im not terrible looking, but im no model material
MESSY: a lot
RESPONSIBLE: not for school
OBSESSED: not obsessed, but dedicative
ANGRY: 1/2
SAD: 1/8
DISAPPOINTED: in some people's stupidity and decisions
HAPPY: often
HYPER: often
TRUSTING: often
TALKATIVE: o man... yeah
LEGAL: halfly

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
KILL: Meh
SLAP: Wyatt, but its gonna be a friend slap. Haha, jk, but uhm... anyone who annoys me to an intense point.
GET REALLY WASTED WITH: Joys Panic boys, Wyatt and others, or anyone of my good friends who ARENT straight edge, no offense
GET HIGH WITH: Same as above about. Chris said he's never gotten high, he should try it one day
LOOK LIKE: I dont know
TALK TO OFFLINE: All my friends at LAHS that I dont talk to online
TALK TO ONLINE: doesnt matter, offline is better anyways

r a n d o m
IN THE MORNING I AM: Half asleep
ALL I NEED IS: Music
LOVE IS: Not real
I DREAM ABOUT: Random things. oftenly having something soem friends or zombies

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
COKE OR PEPSI: i dont usually drink soda that much. I cant even finish half a bottle of soda.
FLOWERS OR CANDY: both bitch
TALL OR SHORT: taller than me... which isnt too hard unless your Tim Kahana

o p p o s i t e | s e x
WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: personality or interests
LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: I dont know, I barely ever go to dances
WORST QUESTION TO ASK: stupid questions like, did you cut your hair when its MOST obvious. Or are you ok, after a most obviously painful situation
WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST? I havent had a good laugh from anyone lately
WHO MAKES YOU SMILE? Some of my not as close friends really do
WHO GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM? Jason sometimes
WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON?: Jason and partially still Nick (longest crush ive ever had)
WHO HAS A CRUSH ON YOU? who knows. ive been told that someone i know likes me, but i'd rather not beleive until proven

d o | y o u | e v e r
SIT ON THE INTERNET ALL NIGHT LONG WAITING ON SOMEONE TO IM YOU?: No
SAVE CONVERSATIONS: sometimes
WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?: Of course, i do that a lot
CRY BECAUSE OF SOMETHING SOMEONE SAYS TO YOU?: nah

n u m b e r
OF TIMES YOU'VE HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: nevaaah. meaning never
OF HEARTS YOU'VE BROKEN: none
OF GUYS YOU'VE KISSED: 1 as a BF, and probably some others as friends like on the cheek or something
OF GIRLS YOU'VE KISSED: 53156809864
OF CONTINENTS YOU'VE LIVED ON: One
OF TIGHT FRIENDS: tight as in cool? or tight as in close? haha, thats giggle worthy. But as in cool, theres some
OF CDS YOU OWN: A lot
OF SCARS ON YOUR BODY: a lot

f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
01. DO YOU LIKE FILLING THESE OUT?: they get repetitive. I think im gonna make my own some time
05. GOLD OR SILVER: meh
06. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THEATERS?: Club Dread
07. FAVORITE CARTOON/ANIME: Simpsons. but i really dont watch much of anything anymore
08. WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?: random poop
09. WHO WOULD YOU LOVE TO BE LOCKED IN A ROOM WITH? Jason, or any other random friends that i think are really cool
10. COULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT YOUR COMPUTER: maybe. it'd be a loss, but it happens
11. WOULD YOU COLOR YOUR HAIR: havent i before
12. COULD YOU EVER GET OFF THE COMPUTER? Yes
13. HABLAS ESPANOL?: excusez moi?
14. HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: 133
15. DRINK ALCOHOL?: Mhmm
16. LIKE WATCHING SUNRISES OR SUNSETS?: ive never done it
17. WHAT HURTS THE MOST? a huge punch in the stomache or face usually does it in

I dont love you, i never did

2004-03-25T03:42:03Z

The Gangster Nation
- G-Unit (presideeent)
- Miggy G
- D Dizzle (vice presideeent)
- Racho aka O-Unit
- Mikey Creepy aka Ham Ham Bigalow
- Majizzal
- Dr.Benjamin
- T Lette
- DJ M Dawg
- Bread
- Captain Lindizzle
- Ro Sham Bo
- Ben Wild
- J Hizzle
- Hot and Spicy
- MC p00p00pantz
- Miz Hazzle Macazzal
- Mc Mex
- Shorty
- J Dizzle aka J dawg
- PlaYana
- mashizzle potatizzle

the beauties in Op Ivy

2004-03-25T02:47:08Z

try try try

2004-03-25T00:31:06Z

Went to MVHS today. I waited outside of Racho's class, and during 1st period she came out to go to the bathroom. At first she just smiled at me, then she was like.. WOAH your here, haha, it was great. I saw Mikey down the hall, so i was like.. MIKEY and he was in his PE uniform,... which wasnt cool. I met that Christian dude, who wasnt half bad, he was pretty cool. Met Avy, Vihn, some random people that I just talked to, it was A OK. My toe hurts. I said hi to Anthony, but he looked nervous or like he wanted to ignore me, so i left. I feel kinda bad for whatever the fuck I did. I think I spent too much money today. $3 on food. $1 on cookies, $2 on pizza. It sucks for me to spend way to much money. Igh. Im so fuckn stupid. I must bother people so much... I got locked out of my house earlier, I forgot my key in here. Iiigh. I hellsa wanna jetski, gokart, or go to the beach and try surfing. Mmmm.... im out

For the people who really know ME

2004-03-19T04:17:43Z

I know im not going, but if I went to Sadies, who do you all think I should ask?

...?

2004-03-19T04:14:34Z

Welcome Bitchesss

Wit

2004-03-14T22:40:15Z

dont you hate it when you fill out a long survey and the page messes up? cuz i JUST did that on a really really long stereotype survey off nicole's journal. and now im just too tired to do it again. its like the world doesnt want anyone to know how witty i am, haha, jk

Grabass Charlestons

2004-03-14T21:43:15Z

Really good band. The bassist moved really funny though, but they were rad